Time out

I thought that I would take this opportunity to do a post while Leon and Emily are in the garage busy building a fire engine! I never take for granted these few moments of peace and quiet and I love the fact that they are having some special dad-daughter bonding time.
Friday was the day that I had to go and see the diabetic specialist and I am so glad that it is over and done with. I was so stressed out by Friday morning anticipating this appointment that I could hardly think straight. Every time anyone instant messaged me I wanted to throw my phone at them - except I couldn't... because they weren't in the room! duh! Eventually the time came and I could actually get this over and done with. 
Went through the run down of my diabetic history with the doc and answered all the questions I feel like Ive answered so many times already through this pregnancy. 
He decided that my sugar has gone a little out of control cause of increased hormones and has put me on a small dose of Metform to try and curb the sugar swings. I am happy to be on medication while at the same time it stresses me out a little cause I was very determined to managed my sugar with diet alone - but in the end it boils down to whats best for baby and I guess this is it. So I will be on this for the next couple of weeks and hopefully it works. If not then I will be going on to insulin for the remainder of the pregnancy. So I REALLY hope it works!

So that's my sugar update. Its been a nice long weekend this weekend and Ive enjoyed the relaxation. Emily learn't to swim on sat in a "BIG" pool - with her armbands on - but still. She can now actually move around the pool independantly and we have so much better peace of mind.


So until next time, have a brilliant Monday everyone!

Holiday time

So Christmas came and went this last December with a mixture of excitement and busyness! Leon was home for 3 weeks, which was totally brilliant! The two of us got to go away together ALONE for the first time since Emily was born and it was greatly exciting! She stayed with her gran and pop pops. We went to a beautiful place near Wolseley and Ceres called White Bridge. www.whitebridge.co.za   
Its a  working fruit farm and has very private little cabins along the river where you can fish and swim. It was totally beautiful!  
The one thing that was very tricky for me about this Christmas was being pregnant AND diabetic! A totally awful combination when there's endless trifle and chocolate around! So needless to say I didn't do all that well and was on a constant sugar overload! 
My next gynae appointment was on the 20th of Jan and I do go dreading it. I know that he is going to give me a hard time about my sugar and its not something that I want to deal with right now!
So off we go - He is running very late as he is down stairs delivering a baby. Not that I mind - if it were me in labour I would want whoever is waiting for him upstairs to be patient too!
We eventually see him at 7pm and we go over everything. He is not happy with my sugar levels and wants me to go for a 3month sugar blood test. :( From there we will take the next step. 

Exciting part - we do another scan, everything looks perfect with this little one and he seems to think that i may be a girl... but nothing is confirmed. We must wait for our 20 week scan to confirm. I am almost 16 weeks at this stage, and I am secretly very excited that we may be having another girl!! PINK PINK PINK :) But we wouldn't be getting everyone excited until it is confirmed.

..... but I was bouncing inside! 

Totally different ball game!

First visit to the gynae - appointment on the 2nd December! I call this a big deal because with Emily I wanted to have nothing to do with hospitals and doctors. I was determined to go 'AL natural' at home with just my husband and midwife present. Except my plan didn't work out as well as I had hoped that it would - Yes, I got to have our little princess at home but it wasn't all plain sailing. After just  hours of labour, her head 'popped'- but the rest of her stayed behind. She had what is called shoulder dystocia - this s what happens when the baby's shoulder gets stuck after the head has come out. Often happens when the baby is very large. Turned out Emily was 4.1 kgs - not what we, or the midwifes expected. In order to save her they had to get her out very quickly, which in this case meant pulling her out. As a result, I tore very badly and started hemorrhaging. My midwife tried for what I think was about an hour to stitch me up but I was loosing so much blood that then decision was made to take me to hospital. The hospital that I needed to get to was about 40 minutes away. That part is all a bit of a blur - I was in and out of consciousness because my blood pressure was so low. I think at this point I had more saline in my body than actual blood! Once at the hospital, they got emergency blood, UN STITCHED the stitches that my midwife had done and took me into theatre to have the stitching redone. The best part I can honestly say... was the spinal block! Which was brilliant after a mostly 'No pain relief' labour and birth. So as you can see, after my first experience which was supposed to be perfect and hospital free, it didn't exactly turn out that way and so now I was confronted with the reality that I would HAVE to go to hospital for number two. Not only that, but because of my diabetes, I would have to have a Caesar. Not that I'm really complaining about that though. It is just all a lot to take in!

So off to the gynae we go! My totally brilliant, committed husband at my side! We have our first scan and everything looks good. Baby is in the right place, Not in a fallopian tube or anything else equally scary and by the looks of it I am about 8 weeks at this stage! YAY! The excitement truly hits -  we are going to have a baby :)

3-4 weeks!

So three days later, on the 5th of November, I find  myself sitting in the doctors room, telling her I think that I might be pregnant. She looked at me as if I was slightly deranged. (Bearing in mind I have a toddler bouncing around the room at the same time). We do the blood test and it confirms that I am in fact 3-4 weeks pregnant. This is where the reality hits me! You see, I am diabetic. And diabetes and pregnancy - TOGETHER - scare the living daylights out of me! I found out that I am diabetic in May 2010, and the doc immediately wanted to put me on insulin. I refused and decided to try and manage it through diet and exercise. The doc gave me 3 months to try and do this and as I sat in front of her , she was happy with my readings and levels so far. But now the pregnancy could potentially  really complicate things. If any of you are diabetic you'll know that, even though you may have it under control, falling pregnant and the hormone changes that go with that, will almost defiantly throw your controlled  sugar levels out the window and make them go sky high! Anyway, this is the reality that I now have to deal with, no turning back! My Doc recommends me a gynae and that's the next step. This is all going to be so different from my pregnancy with Emily and the home birth that I had. ..... BUT that's a story for another day! Need to move my bum and get Emily dressed and ready for the day! We are off to go play at a touch farm. BYE!